Leading away from the depths of my mind,
I came to a halt at his door.
Braving every emotion,
I knocked and awaited an answer.
Alas! Swings the blank door and
He whom my soul searched for,
Hovered above me, with eyes of burning gold.
He smiled as he beckoned me to enter
The dark space he occupied.
And as the dark enveloped us,
The light of love stabbed through my heart!
Memories shared, passed before us,
Fading into the night-like space.
Our young selves fleeting,
With the breath we once held dear.
Our children grown and productive
Made us proud when we lived.
And so ended the life of flesh
Which once separated us for three lonely years.
I am not alone, though I feel like it
time has left me undone
with exams to fulfil
no I cannot seem to multitask, once I thought I was good at this
alas I need to find the middle of this wish
I wish to accomplish.
SHORT STORY UPDATE
So on Friday, I am finally meeting the editor for my first short children’s story. Of course I am open for all the critique (roll eyes) and corrections that had to be done and of course the feel of my purse getting thinner. However, all in all, I would have a clean and ready manuscript almost ready for publishing. Do not know exactly how I would feel yet but you guys would surely know.
The name I had given it sounds good to me but I would still ask a few other authors their thoughts and even my editor. Hopefully, something better comes.
POETRY COLLECTION UPDATE
My poetry collection ‘The Sun Goddess’ is also on the verge of completion. Last night alone I wrote up the ‘Table of Contents’ last. Am still to get some feedback on its entirety from a some other friends in the writing sphere and make a few adjustments. There are some butterflies hovering but they make me feel ‘laughy’.
Surprisingly too, I have been writing ‘Speaking Pages’ on here for a few weeks, I love the name and concept of writing I have adopted with it, soooo my dears, my second collection would be on, yesss, you guessed it, ‘SPEAKING PAGES’. Maybe 100 speaking pages. It would contain lots of fun about author and page.
As for my novella, 50,200+ words is quite a bite to edit. I did a pre edit myself and hope to have that edited professionally soon too. More on that later. Also, there is another on its way, though still in the baby stage of four chapters so far. Yes, I am excited and I hope that you all are too. Any advice is greatly appreciated.
I thank all of you who take the time to read my blog, comment and like. You all are an inspiration to me through your writings as well. Keep up the great work you are doing as we know that there can be nothing read without a writer’s pen.
Have a great week!
the best is left with me
no longer she haunts us
for in my dream I see
head down, she is forever gone
defeated by her greed of wants.
his focus now solely his family
our communication easy
as we grow in harmony.
Beyond the silver lining I see
The higher states of humanity
But in this shell of mortal flesh
I find it hard within my chest
To believe in being one best, in all trials after rest.
To see beyond this silver plain
It pains the simple ones to gain
The descipline that needs to be
a humble soul for eternity.
It’s not that we are afraid to be
But vices can hamper that lining free
Never removed it may be for those unable to give freely.
the flower I saw yesterday
is the one you are today
brilliant and ready to take on everything that come your way
Young you may not always be
but time can give security
to do your best at every task
to ensure your last breath’s mark
remains in memories for the best.
Rolling rolling, gathers no moss
Up came a solution like the trojan’s horse
But the minions wanted to play
Along came a whirlwind and took them away.
Many a time, it so close by
But we are blinded by selfish pride
Wanting to do it for some fame
To many leaders can out the flame.
Let’s put aside the silly talks
And act together for one great cause
To revive our agroecological sphere
Let’s teach the children we are leaving here.
Being betrayed by a close friend is one of the hardest things to go away from your thoughts. Depending on the way you process things that you go through, you can either rise up from it quickly or become damaged and untrusting of everyone to an extent. For me, I had to write about it, go out to the movies, go out with friends more often and sometimes just cry about it. Many times questions would arise trying to wrap your mind around it all, to fully understand why someone so close to you would be deceitful and be normal about it. Then again, you seem to be a nag when you want clarification from them, so most times many questions go unanswered.
However, it is of great importance to have all questions cleared if you live with the betrayer, as sometimes they too may have been confused and is grieving the same way as you are. The issue of trusting them again can only come about after years of learning to trust that same person again or never. In the case of trusting again, for me personally, it has been going on five years after being betrayed be a loved one to see some glimmer of trusting again. I sometimes have to force good thoughts, to abolish the bad thoughts out of my mind! Truly, we all heal at a different rate.
My soul is my friend who consoles me in misery and distress of life. He who does not befriend his soul is an enemy of humanity, and he who does not find human guidance within himself will perish desperately. Life emerges from within, and derives not from environs. From The Treasured Writings of Kahlil Gibran.
Here I would say that Kahlil captured the essence of what it is to love oneself. For if we are unable individually to love self first, then it is futile that we can love anyone or thing outside of self.